Objective failed ..... Mission abort

My dream has broken ! Gosh ... my interview got turned down by the manager, reason ... quiet lame .... I am not mature enough. Hmmm, maybe i should think of how to improve myself towards this. Some self improvement is needed ! Maybe I should consider taking up some courses to improve my personal skill, or maybe a diploma but still under considering.

Kinda disappointed with the interview get turned down. From my friend info, that manager is quiet lame, and sot sot dei haha. But for me, everything I failed to achieve i never blame other aspect, everything I think from my point first. What mistake I had done, anything I am lacking etc. Improvement myself towards failure, this would makes us grow stronger. Doesn't matter what issue, always think about our self first before blaming other, this is my rules of life.

Failure makes us grow, learn from the mistake, improving our self to overcome the failure. Remember the mistake we had done and never ever repeat it, and this is how we make our self become stronger and stronger ! And last one the most important thing is NEVER GIVE UP, fail then try again and never say no, try as hard as possible until we achieve our goal !

B r y a N `
3/30/2010

Mission accomplish!

Yea went to an interview for department transfer, everything goes smooth. First time ever I am so calm attending the interview. Interviewer suppose to be the director but thank god he is busy, so manager and the team leader replaced him and conduct the interview with me. Nothing special, just normal question by introduce myself ,my current work position. My job role and responsibility, experience towards working etc. The interview was quiet fast, whole conversation took about 15 minute and now waiting if I am shortlisted. So pray pray and pray hard ! If I am able to transfer to this new department, it will be very high possibility get convert to permanent staff in DELL which I wished for so long.

But the feeling was damn weird haha, doesn't feel exited, nervous before or after the interview. Maybe all these is cause by that person I care the most, I wont be happy if she is not. I was quiet surprise that I am able to be so calm attending the interview, for me nothing is more important compare to her, maybe I am nothing to her, but she is everything to me. Just wish her happy always, and hope that her wish came true, I don't hope much towards anything, as long as she is happy I am good enough.

B r y a N `
3/23/2010

Boring Sunday :)

Morning - It been a boring day for me this Sunday, nothing much to do but just rotting. Wake up on 8am then went to badminton with my colleague until 10am, quiet relaxing and fun by doing sport on morning. Went to have brunch after that, have some nice killer chicken rice nearby my house there, surprisingly it was damn nice and there goes all my effort on the badminton court previously.

Afternoon - went in to office to support SG pc-fair but for some reason the order are unable to pull out from the report thus just sit there and clear some mail and other retail order. Well can say that is earning free OT from company :P ,feel like kinda waste time going in the office for no reason but what to do, all is for the MONEY !

Evening - Have a nice dinner with my colleague and her parent, very surprise that her parent thinking was like us, easy going, joking around. Dinner was killer, nice western food in James Foo western food in fetes park and the price was quiet decent, GOOD DEAL!

Night - Nothing much, chit chat with friend regarding health. Just one thing that frustrated me is the person that I care the most do actually bothering me. I do understand what she was thinking, just that there is nothing perfect is this world, bu then there is nothing much I can do. I am just nothing to her while just a normal friend but to me, she is everything. I do not wish to see her get hurt for no reason and don't want her to be unhappy about this, but no one will understand what I am thinking and what i trying to do. One thing I realize and learn is, in some situation it is better we keep quiet then we gave more opinion while they already have their own thinking. So what I can do now is just pray for her and hope that she is happy which is I hope to see it everyday.

Be sure that we are happy with what we are doing everyday, that's the purpose of living.

B r y a N`

3/15/2010

"Never regret what you had done today, because it consumed a day of your life time"

Every does mistake, either is serious or minor. It's a process in our life, we learn from the mistake, mistake makes us grow, mistake used as a reference to our life in future. Thus never regret what we had done, everything that we do , we did definitely got its own value. Maybe we wont realize but in future when think back, we would understand.

B r y a N `

3/13/2010

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."

Being loved by someone is very lucky, not everyone had it. As in everything is depending on fate, who will you meet, when you will meet her/him, where will you meet. Appreciate the chance you have and do not let it go off, once go off its hard to chase back. Well loving someone actually is a very torture sometimes, especially when the person you love don't love you..But it give us courage, is not easy to say out those three words " I LOVE YOU " , it needs lot of courage to do it.

APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE !

B r y a N `

3/12/10