New Life New Aim New Dream New Future !

Been a while never logging to my blog, just very tired and lazy ... Its a new start for me, I've gonna change myself to achieve my goal so that can promise a better future for me and my other half. Plan for the life, bought car within this 2 years and finished the installment by 30 years old. Look for a house which affordable by me, get a gf before age of 28 XD hahaha... But this would depend on my faith and luck. Had found a girl which I am interested with, but dunno how she think. This time aint gonna try so hard, just let it be, god will decide. Its mine then is mine but of course I will try my best to approach her, hope this time it works out. GOD BLESS


B r y a N`
10/8/2010

Life...

What the definition for this word "LIFE"? It could define differently for every individual, some love their life, some are not. Why would all this happen? Because of god is not fair? Because you are not from rich family? Been awhile listen from complaining about how good if I'm from a rich family, I can do this, I can do that, bla bla bla... Well, for my thinking is money would never drop from the sky but we have to seek for it, there is no free breakfast in this world. If you want a different life then work hard for it instead of day dreaming of it, and I pretty sure that if you work hard, you will deserve what you have pay in the return. And remember money is not everything... there is thing that we couldn't buy with money in this world. As long as its sufficient then is good enough ...

Time to move on , and also makes some change.

Need a close touch up about myself, what I had done recently and also the pass. Time to refresh what I had done in the pass few month and do a summarize for myself. Time passes fast, it wont stop by just because you are unable to move on, therefor move yourself instead. When you found out somethings that happen are unable to meet the consequences that you wish. Refresh yourself, why things unable work out, how come it turns in this way. Well when problem occur for sure there is something not going well which there is a root causes that lead to the problem. Find out and work on it, never try to avoid it but face it in order to enhance yourself with these ability so you are able to deal and cope with the same problem when it happens in future. Everyday we learn something, no matter less or more, something which is valuable by helping us to grown up, there is a Mandarin quote "活到老学到老", which mean that doesn't matter how old you are, you live and learn. Human will learn when they went through something and it also the purpose of living, when you reach in a stage that you are not learning something, it showed sign that you life is ending soon.

There lot people outside were struggling with problem that related to money, relationship, work and so on. Problem occur when humans unable to find the consequences or answer for the that question pops out to them. I do believe every single problem or issue that happen for sure there is a solution, is the matter of time that would consume to find the solution or you choose to avoid instead of face it. Its part of our life, every single living object do face problem everyday, thus never complaint when you meet a problem but find the solution for it. Once the problem solve, its also upgraded yourself to the next level of your life like injecting an immunity potion for the diseases. In my principle of life, I do feel never avoid from problem or issue that occur, understand the problem that happens, find the root causes, thinks and find the solution, choose the best solution and deliver. Remember times wont stop for you but you have to move on for time.

B r y a N`
29/4/2010

当爱你的人不再爱你的时候...

This is the 1st time I've post with Mandarin, kinda odd but I found out this article is quiet interesting and very meaning thus I posted here :)

给所有得到过所爱却又失去所爱的人
给从未得到所爱的
给因为仍旧爱着
于是选择自欺欺人的人
这是一面镜子
勇敢面对，勇敢放弃，勇敢重新开始……

当他不再爱你的时候
请不要在你不开心
或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。
他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。
也许他会在接到你电话的时候
淡淡的安慰几句，
却也仅此而已。

当他不爱你的时候
请不要在他面前流泪，
不要在生病时告诉他，
他无法给予你照顾和关心，
顶多是同情一下。
所以请骄傲的你，
不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。

当他不爱的时候
你的爱
你的人
就会显得廉价许多。
他占了上风，
这是人的本性。

当他不爱你的时候，
请不要与他讲你的琐事，
他无暇更没有兴趣了解你，
你的生活
你的过去，
你的长处短处与他何干？
即使讲了
他也会很快忘记的，
就如他忘记你的生日，
你的地址
你的电话一样。
没有爱
于是你注定挤不进他的生命。
即使，
你要的只是一个很小很小的角落。

当他不爱你的时候
无论过去他是爱过后来忘了，
又或者是从未爱过，
当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，
他的心便不会记得你。
虽然他知道你深爱他，
但他宁可选择装作不知道。

当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。
请不要计算自己的付出，
不要希望有什么回报。
爱着不爱自己的人，
本身便是没有回报的。
要记住，
你与他之间的爱，
是单方面的，
你用心
他无心。
所以
不要计较对错，
这样会快乐些。

当他不爱你的时候
也一定要祝福他。
有了爱，
便不该有恨。
爱是美好的，
恨却丑陋。
何必让生命中美好的东西化作丑恶呢？

当他不爱你的时候
请你深深呼吸，
一生的路上，
总有那么一朵花属于你，
不是安慰你。
而是
这是生生世世早已经注定的。

B r y a N`
19/4/2010

To the world you are just a person, but to a person you are be the world ...

Worth this verb is very interesting,it can be related to money , effort , love , or something else. When we refer to money or thing , it can be calculate from the value but not for effort , someone or love. For a business or trading we can always calculate the value, it is worth we to do this trading , it is worth it we sell this item with this price. But for love , relationship or people , the value is always uncountable. The effort we put in for someone, the value is very hard to judge by others, but only yourself.

For me, I never think about whether worth it or not when doing something for her. To me, everything I did/done for her is always got it own value, maybe for other they would feel that is not right I doing this way for her in another way of saying is I am stupid. But in my opinion,it doesn't matter how hard , how much I need spend , how much time need to be consume, but as long as she is happy. Even though she is not my girl friend or what, to me she is very important and very worthy. Love is blind, this is what people always say and its true.

B r y a n`
18/4/2010

FML FML !!!

Haih....quiet bored with my life currently, everyday doing the same thing over and over again, wake up - work - come back rest - sleep. It making me become lazier and lazier, I really don't like this kind of life, no excitement nothing. Indeed I still have to continue, because of the money. Maybe the work is bored and not suite me, but I got no choice, cant even change dept , cant find a new job which have this kind of pay and all this is because I don't have a bloody diploma/degree SIGHHH...

Very regret last time I never study properly to finish up my course. Always have a thinking that cert is nothing went come out to work but now proven me that I am totally wrong. Aikz... too bad nothing can be done but just bear with it and work harder in order to get a better job. And hope that I am able to get my new job before my contract end on june. Pray pray... ...

B r y a N `
4/4/2010

Objective failed ..... Mission abort

My dream has broken ! Gosh ... my interview got turned down by the manager, reason ... quiet lame .... I am not mature enough. Hmmm, maybe i should think of how to improve myself towards this. Some self improvement is needed ! Maybe I should consider taking up some courses to improve my personal skill, or maybe a diploma but still under considering.

Kinda disappointed with the interview get turned down. From my friend info, that manager is quiet lame, and sot sot dei haha. But for me, everything I failed to achieve i never blame other aspect, everything I think from my point first. What mistake I had done, anything I am lacking etc. Improvement myself towards failure, this would makes us grow stronger. Doesn't matter what issue, always think about our self first before blaming other, this is my rules of life.

Failure makes us grow, learn from the mistake, improving our self to overcome the failure. Remember the mistake we had done and never ever repeat it, and this is how we make our self become stronger and stronger ! And last one the most important thing is NEVER GIVE UP, fail then try again and never say no, try as hard as possible until we achieve our goal !

B r y a N `
3/30/2010

Mission accomplish!

Yea went to an interview for department transfer, everything goes smooth. First time ever I am so calm attending the interview. Interviewer suppose to be the director but thank god he is busy, so manager and the team leader replaced him and conduct the interview with me. Nothing special, just normal question by introduce myself ,my current work position. My job role and responsibility, experience towards working etc. The interview was quiet fast, whole conversation took about 15 minute and now waiting if I am shortlisted. So pray pray and pray hard ! If I am able to transfer to this new department, it will be very high possibility get convert to permanent staff in DELL which I wished for so long.

But the feeling was damn weird haha, doesn't feel exited, nervous before or after the interview. Maybe all these is cause by that person I care the most, I wont be happy if she is not. I was quiet surprise that I am able to be so calm attending the interview, for me nothing is more important compare to her, maybe I am nothing to her, but she is everything to me. Just wish her happy always, and hope that her wish came true, I don't hope much towards anything, as long as she is happy I am good enough.

B r y a N `
3/23/2010

Boring Sunday :)

Morning - It been a boring day for me this Sunday, nothing much to do but just rotting. Wake up on 8am then went to badminton with my colleague until 10am, quiet relaxing and fun by doing sport on morning. Went to have brunch after that, have some nice killer chicken rice nearby my house there, surprisingly it was damn nice and there goes all my effort on the badminton court previously.

Afternoon - went in to office to support SG pc-fair but for some reason the order are unable to pull out from the report thus just sit there and clear some mail and other retail order. Well can say that is earning free OT from company :P ,feel like kinda waste time going in the office for no reason but what to do, all is for the MONEY !

Evening - Have a nice dinner with my colleague and her parent, very surprise that her parent thinking was like us, easy going, joking around. Dinner was killer, nice western food in James Foo western food in fetes park and the price was quiet decent, GOOD DEAL!

Night - Nothing much, chit chat with friend regarding health. Just one thing that frustrated me is the person that I care the most do actually bothering me. I do understand what she was thinking, just that there is nothing perfect is this world, bu then there is nothing much I can do. I am just nothing to her while just a normal friend but to me, she is everything. I do not wish to see her get hurt for no reason and don't want her to be unhappy about this, but no one will understand what I am thinking and what i trying to do. One thing I realize and learn is, in some situation it is better we keep quiet then we gave more opinion while they already have their own thinking. So what I can do now is just pray for her and hope that she is happy which is I hope to see it everyday.

Be sure that we are happy with what we are doing everyday, that's the purpose of living.

B r y a N`

3/15/2010

"Never regret what you had done today, because it consumed a day of your life time"

Every does mistake, either is serious or minor. It's a process in our life, we learn from the mistake, mistake makes us grow, mistake used as a reference to our life in future. Thus never regret what we had done, everything that we do , we did definitely got its own value. Maybe we wont realize but in future when think back, we would understand.

B r y a N `

3/13/2010

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage."

Being loved by someone is very lucky, not everyone had it. As in everything is depending on fate, who will you meet, when you will meet her/him, where will you meet. Appreciate the chance you have and do not let it go off, once go off its hard to chase back. Well loving someone actually is a very torture sometimes, especially when the person you love don't love you..But it give us courage, is not easy to say out those three words " I LOVE YOU " , it needs lot of courage to do it.

APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE !

B r y a N `

3/12/10